so sweet of bindy! She did this for each of us in the group! I can see that she's put in a lot of effort on it. and I LOVE THIS BOOKMARK!!! I'm gonna use it to finish wadeva i'm supposed to finish but have yet done so to the library books and harry potter series!!! muahahaha!! of cos, behind this ^ is a personal message to each of us. We have a leader which motivates the whole group a lot!!! I LOVE our group leader!! SHE'S THE BEST!!!! BINDY, YOU ROCK!!!! ROCK ROCK ROCK!!!!! MUTHU ROCKS TOO!!! lolx
tmr's OP! I know I MUST be confident in our group! We've done wadeva we can! We've prepared Q&A together, we've done 7 dry runs as well!!! All of us are improving. Now's the second last lap, also the most important lap... after that, comes I&R. I'll pray hard enough that tmr's will go on really really really smoothly for everyone and that we'll all score an "A" for pw!!!
things are not the way they SEEM to be on the surface... but what can i do? i can't make myself blind. i gotta accept the way it is now... i'm becoming less happy. today's, make the feeling worse. it's time to wake up from those beautiful dreams that i fantasize life WAS. i've seen and felt the other side of life.
actually i've done it, it's just that u didn't make instructions clear. can i blame u? i don't know. i kept telling myself i shouldn't. didn't know since when, i decided to always look at myself and think first before putting blames on others. maybe this and that happened, that's why he/she did tt... maybe he/she had some reason(s)tt i didn't know... so i shall not blame so and so... maybe i'm at fault too or it's my fault cos i didn't make myself clear enough... ... wadeva!
but this time i'm not sure at all. so few of the instructions are only mentioned by u when only i've ASKED u, and what if i don't ask u? u won't get want u want frm me and no progress are made. In the end, a whole day of my efforts went down the drain.
i don't blame u cos i vent off my anger too that time when i slept very very late becos of it too... i understand perfectly, i just cannot accept it when u aren't clear and somehow told me off today. actually, i wanna help u. but resulted in
adverse effects.
although only two subjects are left, they put in a haywire position.
gosh! Chinese A'level is on 29/10/07. OP is on 1/11/07. I&R comes straight after OP. Mr. Nathan assured that I&R is easy, so no need to worry! But I'm still worried.
arrrgghhhhhh!!!
I pray that everything will go on smoothly.
I YEARN for a breather.I WANT a breather! I NEED a breather!!! But I know I CAN'T. not NOW.
hmmm... i guess many ppl do have their hideout.
a place that makes them feel calm and peaceful.
my "criterias" for hideouts are just as simple but with an additional one. i.e I knew no one there and no one there knows me too!
it's has been quite some time since i visited my hideout one... probably a year already cos i didn't had time when jc life started... everything at jc is completey different... when i decided to get away from the bustling city, the bustling people- family, friends, even animals... even even- myself... other times, will be to kill spare time... waiting time maybe... anyway, since it's supposed to be a hideout, i'll not reveal... but i guess a few of my close friends know... Do they??? or maybe they've forgotten, cos i seldom brought it up.
today i went H.O 1... as usual, it never fails to make me willing to spend all my time there... I LOVE IT!!! I'M LOVING IT!!!!
my H.O 2.... sad to say, it has closed down sometime ago. sigh.... so my H.O 3 became my second now.
guess i should visit this H.O 2 soon.
and i guess i've found a new 3rd! yippeee!!!
我听说...
有人会因为你的难过而难过，
也有人会因为你流泪而感到心痛。
世界上有这么一个人吗？
好希望能认识这么一个他噢...
gotta wake up at this time to do my part of the OP... it's a misery... haix. But anyway, what has to be done, HAD to be done!
ytdchinese... xie lao shi was on mc, so, we were asked to do e VJC paper 2 and hand it up after the two periods. so i can go home after that! yippee...
jess called while i was waiting for bus 15... she said that her pw meeting was cancelled. lol... cos matthew is MIA (Missing In Action)! waited some time cos jess said she 4gotten her hp at our library... aiYo... i didn't know she's so blur until ytd... heheXxx
went to her house to cook... to be specific, i'm "surpervising"... hahax. She cooked Udon noodles and made chocolate muffins. =) quite tasteless but not too bad, i guess too much water was added to the mixture. She gave me half of the 26 made... There are still some in my fridge now, anyone craving for it? :]
then played PS2 at her house after that... i was bored by the battling game... hehe.. but not as bored as jess. LOL. Then i went to use her comp...
left her house at around 4pm, back to college... OGL INTERVIEW!!!! I was so so so nervous, didn't know why either... maybe I DO care whether I'll get it or not... if I don't, I won't have filled up the form anyway and handed it up!
It was a quite okay one... Vera was nice enof... the situational test was FUN!!! I enjoyed it since it was group work and NOT individual!
went home with Rebecca... she said triton's worse! Charleen said so too...
reached my house's void deck and met june coincidentally... she's on her way to my house... I miss her so much, just too much. Glad enof to meet her once in a blue blue moon :D
slept at around 10pm with a-not-dried hair... heck care cos i was too tired... hehe. went around telling ppl i slept at 5am ytd... 1-hr of slp and then i'm up again to college. My mother came in to check and dried my hair for me while i'm sleeping... she's kinda rough sia! Haiyo...
today
i have sufficient sleep!!! :D gotta go do pw le.
I was reading this week's i-weekly then (forgot e actual date.. hmm... hehe...). Who's on the cover? RUI EN!!!
I always felt that she's really a cool person... even a cold person...
After reading this article, the impression remains intact but something about her had been added, that is, her determination of not going against any of her principles. Many reporters, actors, actresses, and other media staffs and unable to change her mind about certain stuffs. Such as clothes that are too exposed, she will say NO, right away. They gave up. Hence, reports about her do became very seldom unless she had a drama braodcasted recently. And this article came along with her new "masterpiece"- 《破茧而出》. I'm one of the loyal viewers of this serial. Putting the storyline aside, her will to try out all stunts without substitutes, made me feel proud of her, cos' they are not easy stunts that any girl would do, DARE to do. To be honest, the story has some parts that are pretty illogical... A pregnant woman still doing mission and gun scenes, somemore... hahax
Since reporters asked questions that usually she either won't reply or that she gave stuff that is not "captivating" enough to feed the "ever hungry" reporters on juicy news and happenings, in this article, she was given the privilege to ask and to answer. I guess she's the only one in Singapore. lol
So, here's the title: The Pretender
She asked: "Why is my face that grumpy and unhappy? "
She answered: "Finally I'm able to provide evidence to it because my face is born like this since young!"
lol... she's being frank, huh??? but she's cute lar...
She does laugh and smile, but seldom:
I'm always curious why she is a little uncomfortable with putting her surname with her name... Last time, I used to wonder, is there such a surname called RUI (芮）??? If I've not mistaken or remembered wrongly, she's
卢芮恩
The later portion of the article finally revealed what I've been curious about these years. Her parents had a divorce when she's just seventeen. She said: " The house was choatic and quarrels happened very frequently. Then, I do not understand why adults get together when they'll be separated in the end. When I grew older, I told my myself that I'll consider carefully. Marriage is not a MUST, I'm fine with just I, me and myself." "That's why I chose to be like An Xiao Qian in the drama who rather be a survivor than a victim in life." Her words led me into deep thinking...
I've never seen such an article before... for me... not yet... this is the first time. She's worth the space and worth the respect... She's unique...
She's my idol. I'll continue to support her work.
Below her favourite songs: "The Pretender" by The Foo Fighters and " Vultures" by John Mayer.
Artist: Foo Fighters Album: Echoes, Silence, Patience and Grace (2007)Song: The Pretender
Lyrics:
keep you in the dark you know they all pretend
keep you in the dark and saw it all begin
send in your skeletons
sing as the bones come marchin' in againthe knee you buried deep
the secrets that you keep are ever ready, are you ready?
I'm finished making sense
done pleading ignorance
that whole defense
spending this energy
but the wheel thats spinnin' me is never ending, never ending
same ol' story
what if I say you're not like the others
what if I you're not just another one
look at your face, you're the pretender
what if I say I'll never surrender x2
in time I'm so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale, oh well
the pages I repress
they are not permanent, they are temporary, same ol story
what if I say you're not like the others
what if I you're not just another one
look at your face, you're the pretender
what if I say I'll never surrender x2
I'm the voice inside your head you refuse to hear
I'm the face you have to face mirroring yourself
I'm whats left, I'm whats right, I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that takes you down and brings you to your knees
so who are you, yeah who are you, yeah who are you, yeah who are you
even in the dark, you know they all pretend
what if I say you're not like the others
what if I you're not just another one
look at your face, you're the pretender
what if I say I'll never surrender
what if I say you're not like the others
(even in the dark, you know they all pretend)
what if I you're not just another one
(even in the dark, you know they all pretend)
look at your face, you're the pretender
(even in the dark, you know they all pretend)
what if I say I'll never surrender x3
so who are you
yeah who are you
yeah who are you
yeah who are you...
Foo Fighters - The Pretender Lyrics
some problems with e sunny-side up blogskin... so had to use back my previous previous (sunset) blogskin... sigh...
maybe i can't have a sunny-side of life...
WR-ed just now at hong sheng's but still WR-ing... later on... probably... =)
we were pretty productive today! haha... although we are still unable to finish the 3rd draft, to be passed up tmr. we decided to finish as much as we could tonight and hopefully, finish by tmr in college.
in case jun jin pass by my blog and saw this entry... I decided to repeat myself anyway... haha... sry eh, jun jin! =) I 'm really astounded to jun jin's reaction when Bindhya misunderstood that I was crying. lol...
Bindhya: " Jia Wen! Are you crying???"
I didn't had time to say "no!" but jun jin said rather "debatively" : "How can it be! No lah! Jia Wen won't be crying! She's so strong!"
omg! haha... i was really stunned by her tonality!
Then I asked her: " Why do you think so?"
She said: "Of course you won't cry la! You are always so strong and independent!"
"Actually, I always think our class' a few girls are this kind." She continued.
"They are...?" I asked curiously.
"You, Jasmine, Rui Bei and Hui Ping belong to this group..." She responded.
nwae, i kana conned ytd... aiYo...
是应该学乖了罢。
人、事、物，都在改变中。
喜欢可能变成爱，也可能生恨，或许变淡。
看开一点，不要太执著，或许人生会变得简单的多。
所谓：“当初期望不要太高，最后失望就不会太大了”。
人就是爱幻想事情会变得多么地美好、多完美。
受灌溉时，因被迷惑住，所以看不清它的邪恶。
现在才清醒过来，应该不会太迟吧？
I had fun today!
I had fun at our
CG booth selling drinks... hahax
I had fun running over to the assembly plaza to dance for the inter-house mass dance for
PHOBOS!!! :X
I had fun walking around
watching repeated performances that I've watched during rehearsals!
I had fun seeing my
juniors from jyss and chatted with them for awhile!
I had fun cheering for Phobos when we were announced the 1st runner-up for the inter-house mass dance and the overall house of the year (though being a champion house would have been better =D) !!! CHEERS!!! PHOBOS AWWW!!! Mighty, mighty PHOBOS!!!
I had fun singing the college anthem cos' this time is the loudest that I've heard the whole college sing it!!!
I had fun
cleaning up the canteen though I'm dead beat after the long day... =P
I'm happy getting one of the
MJC bags for visitors. hehe... =D I love the card holder's design. It's cute.
I had fun
chatting with
Jasmine, Hong Sheng, Derrick and Harold (our three musketeers) at the canteen (while waiting for Hui Ping, Rui Bei and Ming Yue) and at the area between the assembly plaza and the atrium (while waiting for Hui Ping, Rui Bei and Ming Yue still... ) .
I'm looking forward to the
JC1 bash at the club house. :))
I'm still
considering OGL... ...
I'm tired now. Guess I should sleep liao... ... Zzzz
my friends told me that i've got swollen eyes! for these past days... ytd and todae... I don't know why too... hmmm... i slept at 10+pm ytd till this morning's 6+am... so... HELLO!!! that's already EIGHT HOURS!!! but i do feel that my eyes are relatively dry, puffy and a teeny weeny pain when i woke up... haiXxx... and i can't open them comfortably... awww.... it's still the same until now. I guess I better have sufficient sleep today as well. oh yea... just to update... i've been relatively busy with the college's open house... and TOMORROW is it! oh gosh! pretty fast uh and the week is coming to an end soon... sigh... all my promos papers will be returned... aiyo... To be frank, I'm so scared. nwae, back to today's stuffs, jasmine came to the cca booth suddenly to pass me the OGL sign-up form. I swear I though that was hers and that she wanted me to write on the peer's recommendation column. But it turn out that she took it for me! hmmm... I'm still considering la... actually, despite what Li Hin's warnings about being an OGL, I still do not mind taking up this post since it won't affect my block test if I do get promoted. whatever... now it seems that i'm not even sure if i'll get promoted yet. so, let's see 1st bahx :)) signing off...
new responsibilities are up... rather heavy... cos it's open house on 5th Oct 2007, this Friday! gosh!
nwae, enough of those matters that are facts.
went to teo heng's ytd... surprisingly (or not???), it's e same that i've went with ping, yue and jas e last time... lol... I enjoyed. WE enjoyed. fern, jun, lam and li hin are my bez friends alwayz. so much with them, alwayz. =) I love them!!!
we sang till abt 7pm... left with a bill of juz $18 in total... cheap... economically cheap! :P
we left for parkway... ate at mos burger... had a so-called-shrimp-but-tasted-like-fillet-instead-burger... lol... nice...
then we decided to take two separate cabs home... nope... li hin and mine cab send fern home 1st before all of us gather at li hin's house again to watch the somehow thrilling 9pm drama. lol... this episode very duh.... hehe.
nwae, borrowed 转角 from li hin and jun, lam and mi left her house at abt 10pm... i gotta go jun's house to get her unwanted CDs for CCS booth deco... sianz... i'm so tired already! but there's still lam accompanying mi... yea!!! LAM 万岁!!!
finally reached home at 10:45pm... yawnZzzz... bathed and slept at 12nm+!!!
so sweet of bindy! She did this for each of us in the group! I can see that she's put in a lot of effort on it. and I LOVE THIS BOOKMARK!!! I'm gonna use it to finish wadeva i'm supposed to finish but have yet done so to the library books and harry potter series!!! muahahaha!! of cos, behind this ^ is a personal message to each of us. We have a leader which motivates the whole group a lot!!! I LOVE our group leader!! SHE'S THE BEST!!!! BINDY, YOU ROCK!!!! ROCK ROCK ROCK!!!!! MUTHU ROCKS TOO!!! lolx