First time I felt and experienced this thing happening to me. First time felt that I may faint on the spot but used all my energy to hold myself up as much as possible. This morning, between Bugis and City Hall, cold sweats keep flowing down my cheeks from my forehead, my front view is a mixed of whites and blacks and I felt breathless, suffocating and vomit-inviting. Fortunately, Dan offered to swap place and let me lean against the glass panel instead. Motion sickness and fatigue, I guess. I felt better after a stop or two. Dillon mentioned something about "she looks better now". Phew~
I'm glad I pulled through this long day without yearning to go home earlier. Friends somehow distracts you from all these negative thoughts and feelings ba.
We went Gelare after lecture. Van's bf Shawn drove us to Suntec. We then shopped quite awhile at Carrefour and headed to bbg for dinner.
Now that I'm finally home, my head felt as if it's splitting me into halves. DAMN! Wad's matter with me today huh? Really fatigue? Or there's something to it?
I'm worried about a few people currently. Hmmm... I know, I know. I should take care more for myself than worrying about others all day. Haix... HEADACHE!!!! I'm nt thinking anymore.
R.E.S.T.
Nope, S.L.E.E.P is the best medicine on earth. (:
9:31 PM watching sunsets together.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Skeptic
10:28 PM watching sunsets together.
I'm an angel? My stomach's feeling unwell now.
It's bcuz u've not seen the DEVIL side of me! U'll be surprised. SHOCK.
Haix, SEP is a really bad month. So far, so bad...
1:23 PM watching sunsets together.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
人心显恶
1:33 PM watching sunsets together.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Didn't expect myself to flare up at a place outside home and on ppl I'll never wanted to throw tempers on. Everything happened too fast. Everything is out-of-control. However, I guess Virgos are just plain Virgos. Once our emotions take over our rationality, no sense can talk us through.
I do admit that throwing tantrums is a childish act but I felt betta aft buying tissue from the poor old granny at the mrt stn. Hope I can redeem some of my sins or wrongs by this. I don't throw tempers for no reasons. Just tt whether I wish to say and explain those reasons anot.
Just feel myself being used and ppl just take advantage of me being nice to them and saying "OK" to most/all requests. Just fed up... haix... Becuz, this is an absolute cross beyond the lines.
Need you to OT oso never ask u, just take u for granted tt u'll help/agree AUTOMATICALLY and when everything's discussed, comes back and asks u why u are still here "Thought u finish at 930pm?", "Why you still here?" "Enough ppl, dun need, you can go hme now." Sounds I'm totally lyk a back-up, a reserve etc... Lyk wad Ax "summarizes" earlier in the afternoon: "Oh you covering her today? So u are a reserve, a back-up la?" Maybe becuz tt's the reality of part-timers, and it's a fact, tt's y, I gt even more angry wif Ax.
The truth hurts huh? Gotta agree and treat this as a lesson to mature and grow up!!! Dun be too naive!!!! Treating everyone like an angel, thinking everything happens for a reason and everything's ok and I'll hold it in, I'll tolerate. I'm so sick and tired of these now.~
11:06 PM watching sunsets together.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
It's my 1st free day after a long time of work, etc...
CAN'T I JUST HAVE SOME PEACE FROM ALL OF YOU???!!!!
Everything can be done any other time right?! I'm tired out, exhausted from work and the poor gastric of mine recently is a little torturing but I held all of them in.
DAMN IT! URGHHHHH~
2:39 PM watching sunsets together.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
U-Kiss - Someday
Meaningful lyrics indeed. U will finally pull through the hardships and the day will be D-Day u smile :)
7:45 PM watching sunsets together.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Always, I promise other ppl things that are going to cost me dearly and tired myself out thoroughly.
However, I insist (each time) tt "Promises are meant to be KEPT cautiously, not meant to be broken".
12:46 AM watching sunsets together.
Monday, September 12, 2011
To be honest, to be treated as a rubbish chute where ur friends pour sorrows upon, is a compliment to me as it signifies that u are trustworthy and is a comfortable listening ear as pertaining to them.
However, when u know bits and pieces, the cliff hanging feeling just worries me way to much exceeding the satisfaction gained. I'm loosing slping hrs and couldn't slp longer hrs (like I always do) and this is driving me restless and nuts!!! My diet and appetite got affected as I lost it with food in front of me and felt hungry when they're gone. Boo~
Moody... Restless... Suffocating... And a lil sick (cough) from June and Fern (frm sharing food last nite).
A chance, once lost, is forever gone and never be retrieve.
How I wish I can rant at YOU to tell u to STOP acting like a CLOWN. Stop the force front! It hurts to watch u smile and laugh when I know u're crying inside. '_',
