things are not the way they SEEM to be on the surface... but what can i do? i can't make myself blind. i gotta accept the way it is now... i'm becoming less happy. today's, make the feeling worse. it's time to wake up from those beautiful dreams that i fantasize life WAS. i've seen and felt the other side of life.
actually i've done it, it's just that u didn't make instructions clear. can i blame u? i don't know. i kept telling myself i shouldn't. didn't know since when, i decided to always look at myself and think first before putting blames on others. maybe this and that happened, that's why he/she did tt... maybe he/she had some reason(s)tt i didn't know... so i shall not blame so and so... maybe i'm at fault too or it's my fault cos i didn't make myself clear enough... ... wadeva!
but this time i'm not sure at all. so few of the instructions are only mentioned by u when only i've ASKED u, and what if i don't ask u? u won't get want u want frm me and no progress are made. In the end, a whole day of my efforts went down the drain.
i don't blame u cos i vent off my anger too that time when i slept very very late becos of it too... i understand perfectly, i just cannot accept it when u aren't clear and somehow told me off today. actually, i wanna help u. but resulted in
adverse effects.
