Disappointed, really very disappointing... Both towards that person and towards myself and our friendship. Our friendship is so shallow that I am kept away from so many things and I didn't see things. Haix....
I'm unhappy and so exhausted because everything I always thought is, is not what it appears to be. What a failed friend I am huh?
I shall learnt to stop probing things from the next time on as knowing everything doesn't help me. I'm worrying more and thinking more. Mentally straining and exhaustive. Am I escaping the reality already...? I broke down. I hope u've nt detected or heard anything over the phone. Haix haix haix... I didn't see THAT coming myself too. Mayb you know me more than I do about myself. Tears keep rolling down and I can't cease them. Felt way too tired bah... Almost can't talk and felt like hanging up. But I managed to held that in, so that I won't make u more worried. Though letting u listen into everything didn't make u worry any lesser... I'm guilty, very guilty... I'm praying very hard that u've missed the whole breaking down but according to what I know, that chance will occur to be pretty slim...
Sounds like a really bad day than a celebratory one... Ouch huh...?
